No Control, Just Faith

Over the past eleven days, I have been given an opportunity to reflect on life and the burden of having to focus on the future. It is within the moments in our life where we have to surrender ultimate control to someone else, and are left powerless to alter a situation. We must simply trust in others to be successful in those endeavors that have the capabilities of changing our lives forever. Although in our lives, we eagerly look toward the future as a time when we can achieve a personal goal or find the success that seems to be just beyond our grasp. However, there are times in our life when we have to look forward into the future and understand that we will suffer great losses and must carry heavy burdens.

My Mother suffered a stroke on February the Second, and was hospitalized for eleven days. Being in her seventies and in fair health, I had to prepare for the worst and pray for the best. Fortunately, she has minimal physical symptoms of the stroke. She was able to very quickly regain full speech, thought processing and walking abilities. Sometimes the fear comes from worrying about next time.

Being her primary family caregiver, much of my life and schedule revolves around providing for her. A daily schedule of medication disbursements and meal preparations, combined with simple tasks that many of us take for granted, have to be a priority in my schedule. Balancing my roles as a family caregiver and a college student requires precise planning on my part. Sometimes it also requires me to make priority decisions, which includes letting the school work take a back burner to family obligations. However, I do not have to hesitate when determining my priorities.

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